Looking back on 2011

2011, it's been a life chaning year.

I can say without a doubt that this year has surely changed me, hopefully for the better. In the early month of '11 I was depending fully on others for my self-confidence and with such low self-confidence my testimony struggled. I manage to pull a good face and hide my fear, concerns, and thoughts that haunted me for quite a few months.

      My family, my leaders, and my friends could tell that I was struggling but didn't know to what degree so they continued to write me letters or messages of encouragement that I don't think they realize what they did for me. I appricate every letter, note, or quick compliment and I still have a lot of those notes; thank you.

Last week in July changed me, gave me the push that I needed to fully let go of my fears; E. F. Y. My previous year of EFY wasn't as life changing but it gave me a basis to go on the next time around. I had two friends at the beginning of the week that I knew, and believe it or not; I was shy. I didn't know then how much my testimony would grow and my self-esteem would boust.

      I knew instantly I was at the right place and doing the right thing; I'm so grateful for every single person who was at EFY. They have no idea what they've done for me, they introduced me to the light I had lost and reminded me of the queen I'm meant to become. The Fellowship -- my company, was the greatest. I honest feel like I made good friends that are battling this war beside me; I'm not alone. I'm so grateful for all of you in my company and my councilors; thank you.

Since that week, my life has been tough there's no doubt about that. I've had times of sadness that I've forget the great blessings the Lord has given to me, including my trials. I have amazing friends that have stood beside me and help me pick myself up; they gave me another push that I needed. I'm truely grateful for all of you and the example you have gave me.

     Back to the present, I still have doubts and my negative thoughts but I'm in control. I'm not letting them control me, they will not bring me down the level of misery I was once in. I know I have a ways to go until I am to be potiental but these are my first steps. I know life will be hard, but with the Lord I know I can do anything. He has given me strength and waited for me to find him once I lost my way; He is my Savior. My gratitude towards him in endless and eternal. I know how I was acting earlier this year did not set an example of a memeber of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. & I know with each prayer, scripture, and Sunday  I'm becoming a better example.

I'm looking forward to 2012, the year that I can really grasp a deeper meaning of the gospel that has saved me. I hope that I can continue to become a better example of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and that I can help others know who they are and what they are destined to be. I want to be my own kind of missionary.

I hope you all have had a great holiday remembering the birth our Christ, may we remember his birth all year long. Happy New Years! 







Moi Messages

Like the conversion story of Alma the Elder?

Want to know the scriptures in a more personal level?

Want to know how Alma was the most different priest of all King Noah's high priests?

Read "Desire of our Hearts" By Sariah Wilson.

  It's amazing!

Lets you know Alma on a more personal level, lets you see how life was back around that time, and shows the figuratively what Alma went through finding Christ. (: (:

After I finished reading in this morning, a feeling of peace filled my soul. I know it was the Lord revealing to me that what was said was true.  Yes, it's not the Book of Mormon but it keeps the true message in there. There is nothing wrong with making a story personal as long as it keeps the truth, just like Sariah did. It is one of the three LDS book I'm hoping to read in the next month, I'm quite enjoying reading books that hold my same standards and keep encouraging to stay strong and be an example of the believers.

I highly recommend this book!

True Meaning of Christmas

The Star

 A heavenly sign of the prophecy fulfilled long, long ages ago. The shining hope of mankind.

Red

The first color of Christmas symbolizing the Savior's sacrifice for all.

Fir Tree

 Evergreen -- The second color of Christmas shows everlasting life. The needles point heavenward.

The Bell

 Rings out to guide the lost sheep back to the fold -- signifying that all are precious in the eyes of the Lord.

The Candle

 A mirror of starlight reflicting our thansk for teh Star of Bethlehem.

Gift Bow

 Tied as we should all be tied together in bonds of goodwill forever.

Candy Cane

 The sheperd's crook used to bring lambs back into fold, A reminder that we are all our brother's keeper.

The Wreath

 A symbol of the never ending eternal nature of love, having no beginning and no end.

He's Everything You Need

These scriptures promises offer comfort in times of need. (:

When you are the neediest, He is the most suffcient. 2 Corinthians 12:9

When you are completely helpless, He is the most helpful. Isaiah 50:7

When you feel totally dependent, He is absolutely dependable. Psalm 46:1 

When you are the weakest, He is the most able. Job 5:15-16

When you are the most alone, He is intimately present. Psalm 32:7

When you feel the least, He is the greatest. Proverbs 3:25-26

When you feel the most useless, He is preparing you. 1 Peter 4:12-13

When it is the darkest, He is the only light you need. Psalm 27:1

When you feel the least secure, He is your Rock and Fortress. Psalm 31:3

When you are the most humble, He is most gracious. James 4:6

When you can't, He can!! Jude 24

Men's Hearts Shall Fail Them

For yourself

Sometimes the people we most want to help, need to take the first step for themselves. They find no benefit if we do all their progress, they only get the end result. We can not do someone's improvement, we each need to grow by our own will, want and agency and with faith in the Lord that he will guide us through it. For this isn't what life is about, it's about going through the challenges of mortal life and improving ourselves to make ourselves better.

A great example of this is Jesus Christ, our Savior. He knew he had to do this struggling task, that would take all his will power and faith in his Father to do, but that doesn't mean He didn't struggled. He called about his Father, asking if it may be, let this cup pass over me. He wanted to leave and have someone else do this task but He knew that the Lord would see him through it and would not forget him.

Life isn't about the trials, it's about the progress we make from them. Therfore, we can not have someone else do the trials that were made to benefit us.

Conference Quote!

"Scriptures can calm an agitated soul, giving peace, and hope and a restoration of confidence in one's ability to overcome the challenges of life. They have potent power to heal emotional challenges when there is faith in the Savior. They can accelerate physical healing." - Elder Scott

"We need to desire to recieve revelation, we must not harden our hearts, and then we need to ask in faith, truly believe that we will recieve an answer and then diligently keep the commandments of God." - Sister Thompson